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When I'm spiraling, I can easily get lost in cycles of complete self-hatred. It's a strong word, but I realized that if I was thinking, talking, and having these feelings towards another person instead of myself, it would be hate and it would be wrong. It's almost harder to combat self-hatred, though. So what do [...]

You want to know what it said last night? Satan, the devil, my demons, the depression...whatever you want to call it. Relentless. Circling my head, over and over. Battering "Your husband can't stand being around you" "You hate yourself, how do you think he feels about you? He didn't fall in love with this." "If [...]

Here’s the thing. I can’t see beauty anymore – I can’t see it, I can’t feel it. Sometimes in whispers, but not in full. I know it’s there. I try to lean into it. I just can’t get lost in it like I used to. There is a wall between me and the beauty. Or […]

I have 3 generations before me of women (and men) who struggled with depression and anxiety. 3 beautiful women who constantly belittled themselves and their bodies. 3 wives, daughters, sisters, and mothers who struggled in themselves - who weren't vocal, who didn't feel empowered to seek help or talk openly about it. They worried endlessly, [...]